Now was the right time to reach out to her and tell her love story to the world; It’s something most people don’t know about. We at ETimes called her and Usha Khanna talked about it.
Here is the conversation that took place:
Let’s rewind your entire love story with Saawan Kumar Tak…
When and where did you meet Saawan Kumar Tak?
I was doing the music for a movie where Saawan Kumar ji had appeared; he was writing his songs. We developed an almost instantaneous relationship.
He soon signed me up for his next director (then) ‘Hawas’. Along the way, our friendship blossomed into love.
Did one or both encounter any resistance from parents/family?
Not. In fact, our families attended our wedding.
What happened after 7 years that the two of you broke up?
It happens. After a few years, you start to dislike certain things about the person you’re with. Better to separate and live separately than to fight constantly. I can’t speak ill of someone I loved. But we couldn’t get along. Understanding began to wane. We decided, ‘
aap apni jagah, main apni jagah– but we will remain friends’.
Today, I am missing a friend (keeps crying).
Jo understanding hamari friendship mein thi, woh shaadi ke rishtey mein nahin hui.
When did you last speak to him?
Four days before he died, we spoke on the phone. He invited me to lunch. I told him, ‘Definitely. Just wait a few days, I’m currently fasting as it’s savan’ month. He asked me when my fast would end. I told him ‘It will end on the 28th of August. I will visit him on the 28th.
When did you last meet Saawan Kumar Tak?
About a month before he passed away. I had gone to his house.
Were you two in such frequent contact?
Oh yeah. Whenever we were free, we used to try to catch up. He loved to play cards. I used to join.
Did you go to his house when he passed away?
No, not me (becomes tearful).
May I ask why…
Ab chale gaye, toh kya jaake karungi? His son sent me pictures of the hospital where he was admitted. He also sent me the ceremony photos of his last rites.
It’s commendable that the two of you got along so well, despite the breakup of your marriage…
Everyone in the industry wondered if we really broke up when they saw our constant gelling. Rajesh Khanna used to ask if we were fooling the world that we parted. We didn’t even differ in the choice of singer. Whatever name is suggested for a song, Saawan ji would go with it. And I just followed him in whatever variation or specification he wanted in my voice for his movies.
Was Saawan Kumar Tak too friendly with many girls?
Kya unke kuch rishtey huye o?
hey o. I said we should be apart and I wouldn’t bother him (in his personal life) after that.
But it hurt you…
Dekhiye, dukh toh hota tha (Sorrow is obvious in these matters); after all, we were husband and wife.
Bas, maine kaha, aap apni jagah rahiye aur main apni jagah rehti hoon (we will be under different roofs). I didn’t want to pile on top of him and keep fighting.
Was that one of the reasons you ended your marriage to him? Your lifestyle, I mean…
You mean, him having his share of girlfriends (after marriage)? Well, they came to him of their own accord; What could he do?
Let me ask you again:
Was that one of the reasons you ended your marriage to him?
Yes, relationships are like glass. A crack formed. But I didn’t let him dominate me and get the best of me.
That’s good, otherwise it could have affected your health…
But when you tried to explain to him your errant ways, did he refuse to listen?
Frankly speaking, I didn’t try to explain it. If girls called him, I actually always handed him the phone if I had answered. Like, ‘
Radhika ka phone aaya hai, aap baat kar lijiye‘.